As my brain starts to think into space
I start to tick like a bomb
Moving from my room to a deserted place
I m not realizing what is going on

Something is letting me down
I m having trouble moving around

Contemplating tasks becomes a tiring chore
I used to screw them around but now I m their whore

I m counting the rounds
Without counting the shots
I m shooting everything down
Unaware of all that I ve lost

Chorus
I will always remember how I learned to forget
I think my mind s crumbling inside my head
But it s not a pile of ruins quite yet

I can barely sing these lines
I haven t had some decent sleep
In such a long, long time

As the clock tries to snap me awake
I throw it hard against the wall
Disturbances make my body shake
Now my tolerance ladder takes a fall

My head starts to spin around
As my blood is circulating down

Despite my mind I have great health
Always took such good care of myself

I m making slim odds
Of my chances of getting through thiq
This isn t fraud
Bet against me and you ll win big

Chorus
I will always remember how I learned to forget
I think my mind s crumbling inside my head
But it s not a memory just yet

I could barely write this song
The riffs were feedback in my head
Their responses felt so wrong

Then I saw through my eyes a different face

Blue eyes to look at the ocean
Black lips to forgive the storm
Pink teeth to bite the shipwreck
And green sand to recover my scorn

So now I m here
A cold bitter shadow
Miles away from anyone
The water isn t shallow

I need a rest
From not being the best
I need to think
With nothing to make me sink

So leave now
I won t take any help
I ll soon learn how
To get through this by myself

I m putting my regrets forever on the shelf
I ll get through all of this by myself